Wednesday, March 3, 2010

3.2.10 Grief and Shopping

Today I got this FANTASTIC idea for my next bulletin board at school, It is about my scrapbook club and also our African Dance night, but I dont want to give too much away since it will be my blog later this week. What I really want to talk about is my trip to the doctor. Today I had my checkup with my OB/GYN to make sure eveything is ok after the miscarriage. I havent thought much about it lately, other than that it was unfortunate, but I have kind of come to terms with it and moved on. Well as I was sitting waiting to be seen, I suddenly heard a baby's heartbeat on a doppler in the room next to me. It was the most beautiful sound ever, but it also instantly dissolved me to tears. Suddenly I became accutely aware that this was the appt I was suppose to be hearing our baby's heartbeat. I managed to get it together before the doctor came in, but I cried all the way home. It was an unexpected wave of grief. The doctor gave me permission to shop to help with sadness, instead of doing crack...haha. So i treated myself to the scrapbook section of Michaels. They had new papers and stickers, and it was super exciting. I was only suppose to get things for my bulletin board, but I ended up spending $40...oops. I have new things to work on Jakob's album with though, which is exciting. I was having scrapping block because of lack of materials, now I am excited to get to scrappin again!


  1. ok, now I totally want to go to Michaels! Had the exact same experience at the doctors after my miscarriage. When are we going to be going to the OB for the good stuff? Is it ever going to happen? Love you! Let's scrap!

  2. I'm glad shopping was somewhat of an antidote. Can't wait to see you soon!