Sunday, January 24, 2010
Never thought my blog would get so serious so fast.
I feel so awful. I can hardly go more than an hour and I start crying again. I don't know how I will ever make it through work this week, not that I have a choice. I don't like being in this limbo, I don't want it to be over, but I dont want to keep going like this. I wish I had no responsibilities and could just crawl into bed and hide out till I feel brave enough to face the world again. Tommorrow I am suppose to go to the doctor, but I doubt there will be much news. I have watched too many people I love go through this, I don't know why I thought it wouldn't happen to me. Only 5% of women who's last pregnancy was successful have miscarriages. When did I get so lucky as to start being in the minorities...
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You can do this! Just look at that beautiful boy. Do you know how blessed you are? Regardless of what happens, you have to remember that you are blessed. Your family is here for you, whatever you need. I am here.
ReplyDeleteI know I am blessed, and he is keeping my spirits as up as they can be through this. Please don't think I am ungrateful for what I have, just incredibly sad for what could have been.
ReplyDeleteYou are not allowed to be sad yet. Be sad once you know for sure. I understand exactly how you feel and it is very different then one would expect.
ReplyDeleteYou can be sad whenever you want to be sad my love. I am in that 5% as well, but 30% of pregnancies end in miscarriage and thats just known pregnancies so I suspect the percentage is higher.
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